Hair Update- Hair Loss and Recovery

A few weeks ago, I posted a blog about my hair loss journey. As some of you saw my graduation post with very different hair, I want to share what happened. This week, I want to give an update on the state of my hair and how I feel about it now.

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For a couple of months, I was losing three to four clumps of hair every day. I couldn't wash my hair, brush my hair, or touch my hair without chunks falling out. When I took pictures of what felt like bald spots in my hair, I lost clumps. By the time I had my next haircut, which was a month from when I first started noticing it, I looked like a different person. I had thin hair for the first time in my life, and was continuing to lose more. It was affecting my confidence, and I didn't know what to do about it.

My hairdresser told me she thinks I will lose all of my hair at some point, and new hair will grow. Currently, I am having new hair growth, but that hair is extremely short. AKA- I was losing hair quickly, the few strands that were left were long and lifeless, and I was growing new hair at different rates. I did not like that look, even though I knew I couldn't do anything about it. To add to the fun of managing my hair, I have to limit hats, heat, and some styling. So, because of that, I cut a lot of it off!

My biggest question I have been asking is: "Do I look feminine enough?" Luckily, I have been getting reassurance about that (If you don't have anything nice to say, please say nothing at all). My hair is still really thin, but now I am not losing it as drastically, and I am not all consumed by it. It gets poofy way more easily, and I don't fully know how to style it other than get it wet and let it air dry, but doing my hair has never been a strong suit of mine.

This experience has forced me to remove my hair as an identifier for me. Cutting it did affect my confidence and made me scared to think about dating, fashion, makeup, and my relationship with femininity as a whole. Who am I if I don't appear as girlie in my athleisure?! However, after having this hair change for a few weeks now, I can say that I didn't need to do anything drastic to be myself. While some say a pixie cut is affected by a person's neck (apparently mine is long....), I truly think that anyone going through hair loss for any reason can find ways to still feel like themselves. I still am limiting my use of makeup most of the time, I have been wearing my same clothes, and I have been doing a lot of my same hobbies. I'm still me, just with a haircut that doesn't make my temporary hair loss quite so obvious.

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Thank you for reading about my hair update!  If you have any questions or comments, please comment on the blog, reach out at @Anniekrollblog on Instagram or Facebook, or email me at Anniekrollblog@gmail.com. I hope to see you next week!